Happy Monday, friends. I hope this February day is finding you leaning more and more on the love of our precious Savior.
There has been a post that has been brewing in my heart for a while, and I am not sure that this will turn out to be it, but I am hoping.
One word I so often find myself saying when writing on this blog is “pray”. I love praying for you, and covet any prayers you send my way. Over the last few months I have been convicted by my own lack of prayer – especially about the things I hold most dear. In particular, my heart has been struck by the obvious lack of prayer over my marriage bed and sex life. I find it so easy to complain or compare. Not always externally, but often internally. How often do I strive to turn those complaints into prayers? How many times have I taken my tears of frustration, anger, hurt, hopelessness and brought them to the Lord in an act of surrender? How many times have I performed a simple act of faith in kneeling by my bed and asking the Holy Spirit to dwell there, to bring life and truth into that place? I regret to say it is much less often that I should.
Recently I was pondering why this is. Why don’t I pray as I know I ought? A still, small whisper in my heart replied “It is because you do not truly believe prayer makes the difference.” I wanted to deny it, but I knew it was true. Prayer feels like a simple Christian discipline – not like a life-altering way to connect with God, see miracles occur and find my own heart radically shifted towards Truth. I was struck with my own lack of faith – my own small perspective of how great a God I truly serve.
So today, amazing women, I want to issue a challenge to you. Pray. Truly and deeply approach the throne and seek the face of God. Commit your marriage bed – in its joy or its pain – to Christ. Ask Him to redeem it, to restore it, to rescue it, to make it the heartbeat of your home. Ask Him to display His glory – the picture of Himself and His church – through your marriage. Don’t stop praying. Don’t grow weary.
I want to challenge you to be aware of your complaining heart. I want you to open yourself up to being convicted by the Holy Spirit when your thoughts go astray. Would you allow yourself to receive the gift of repentance, and commit yourself to responding to what comes – good and bad alike – with prayer?
I am praying for you today. There are so, so many of you who are hurting. There are so many who are discouraged. There are so many who are desperately hoping for a change. Are you lifting up all of your heart and hopes to Him who alone can change all things? Are you willing to let Him change what needs to be changed – be it your own self or someone else?
Please pray for me today, too. There are some serious, life-altering decisions that are being made in my home – pray that Mr. Spice and I would proceed with wisdom as we trust God to lead us.
I love you,