I was talking this morning with a group of friends that I meet with for Bible study weekly. I was sharing how difficult it is for me to deal with my emotions. Just yesterday I had a “the sky is falling” kind of day. In fact, at one point in the day, while Mr. Spice and I were having a disagreement, I said something along the lines of how we are always arguing and have never seen eye-to-eye in our whole marriage. He gently asked me why I was so grumpy, and said he disagreed with me that we are always fighting. Of course, even as I was saying it I could hear those little “always” and “never” words that are clues that I am speaking out of emotion and not fact.
Today I was sharing this story with my friends and one wise woman had these words for me :
We are women. We are made to feel. Our emotional make-up is a gift to the world and ourselves. But it can mean that sometimes our emotions take off with us. The question we must ask ourselves is this – where do you land? There are only two places to land – in Truth or in lie. On God’s side or the enemy of our soul. There is no middle ground.
What wisdom! So often I find my emotions are flying away with me. I am getting angry, grumpy, upset. The flight itself is often part of this weak and frail makeup as a human woman. But it doesn’t mean I have to land in a lie. I don’t have to take my grumpy day into a “our marriage is always failing” conversation. I can choose Life. I can choose Truth.
And when I do land in a lie (which I do too often), I have to repent to God, and ask forgiveness – usually to my husband. Thank God for His eternal patience with my female heart!